Luma's Layers

I was gone.  But, not for too long.  It feels like it's been months upon months since I last blogged. I could blame it on being busy, but in fact I was making excuses as to why I couldn't blog just yet.  Despite appearing busy with new ideas and business ventures, I truly was trying to deal with my own health concerns. If I can be totally honest with you all, I haven't been eating right, sleeping right, intentionally praying enough, and definitely not taking time off of social media to focus.  I actually fell into a short period of feeling diminished but I quickly found out it was God telling me I NEEDED to get my life organized . From my actual home, down to my ideas and prayer life. I seen a close friend of mine share a post of her brand new journaling bible, prayer journal, and yearly planner book. When I saw her post, I immediately felt a nudge to get organized through a planner, but not just a regular planner.  Do you know how much planners can

Yes, you read that right.😭 ONE THOUSAND, probably more, swarovski crystals mixed in glitter. The bright, shiny, silver glitter gleamed all over my bedroom floor and it took me a minute before I realized my swarovski crystals were all over the floor too. I made myself so busy, consumed with so many thoughts and flooding my mind with the nonsense I am seeing on social media. While I was soaking in la-la land, my children were in my bedroom decorating my floor with all my nail glitter and crystals. For a moment, I felt like screaming at the top of my lungs and then as I took a breath, it suddenly shifted to a feeling of guilt and sadness. "Why was I not paying attention?" I asked myself. "What if they got into something worse?" I kept asking myself these questions that just made me feel even worse. I moved the kids from the bedroom and I had to realize that I am not less of a mother for this small incident. I could not keep making myself guilty over spilled glitt

I remember my husband telling me how someone once told him, "no matter where you go, there you are." Did you read that correctly? No matter where you go, there you are.  You Can Run, AND You Can Hide. You know the saying about running and being unable to hide...I actually believe that you have the ability to hide. Not only can you run away and hide very good, but you can hide for very long. Let's take this and put in into perspective when it comes to your life. I came from a place we will just name "Gloom-hamton"...that's right--GLOOM. I felt like this almost every other day, and if not every other day, AT LEAST once a week. Not to say it was a horrible place, although I have made it sound like it, I just felt that way living there. I said to myself, only if I could just escape this place then my life would be so much better. I was blaming other people for my misery, even distancing myself from the ones who cared and loved me the most. If you do

If you haven't yet seen my extremely BOLD and very first Facebook live, I highly recommend watching after you read! I gracefully quit my job. I decided the life I wanted to live was the life I deserved and nothing   less . Not that my job was bad or that they did anything wrong, but I received clarity that I had been seeking for a really long time now. You are NOT limited by the title that comes before or after your name. What ever that title is, whether Dr., Mrs., mom or fill in the blank, you are not limited by it. You are not your title, you are MORE than that. And by the grace and mercy of God, we can confidently and boldly obtain more! As you all know by now, I carry various "titles" but none of them stand above the greatness that God has created me to be. It took one more job opportunity for me to realize it. 3 Weeks. That is all it took...thank God! 😂 But really, within 3 weeks of employment at a beautiful 5 start facility, I decided enough was eno

Have you ever spent time, and I mean not a couple of minutes, not a half hour, but like HOURS just sitting in one place stuck in your thoughts. You've gotten to what seems like the high place and all of a sudden you find yourself questioning your feelings. The more you "rest" the worse you feel. Yeah, me too . It's funny how much control we give our fleshly minds to wander into the darkness. I have my faith and have built a relationship with God, but that doesn't exclude me from imperfections and having bad days. I still have found myself allowing nonsense emotions steal a whole day out of my life. Sometimes it has even been as far as multiple days or even months. The nonsense emotions turn into guilt and guilt turns into a whole pile of other lies. Before I know it, I have dug a ditch and laid myself in it.  Looking For My Way Out. I don't have to spend too much time in the "ditch" before I realize that I am in one. I forget how much time

vi·sion·ar·y [ˈviZHəˌnerē] ADJECTIVE (especially of a person) thinking about or planning the future with imagination or wisdom. "a visionary leader" synonyms: inspired · imaginative · creative · inventive · insightful · ingenious A very good friend of mine inspired me with this next blog. Upon deciding what it was that I wanted to talk about next, I received a pleasant message reminding me that I was in fact a visionary. Now, at first it took me back a bit, like, who me? No. Not me. That word just sounded so powerful and so SURE and so beyond me. So what did I do, naturally ? GOOGLE it. 😂 Visionary...Someone who thinks about or plans the future with imagination or wisdom. Ohhh, okay! I am ALWAYS thinking or planning for the future with imagination and I do my best to do it with wisdom that I receive from studying the word of God. But, there is just a little problem. I have SO many thoughts and plans that it truly overwhelms

I have always had art inscribed all throughout my DNA. My grandmother knits to the most intricate, detailed and tiny patterns. She has the gift for designing and her hands have been blessed to also cook amazing foods. My "big" little brother is phenomenally talented with the gifts of dance (B-Boy) and the man has blessed hands to sketch and draw like you WOULDN'T believe (just check his IG: @7.s_rlo ). My younger brothers all have talent to an extent as well. My mom...my mom is beyond blessed with a one of the most creative minds and hands I have ever known (look at her masterpieces on her FB: (Charomarie Rodriguez) . I would list the things she does, but when I tell you there isn't a thing she can't do, it is the honest truth. God has used my mother, working through her in every part of her life and it has truly spread the blessings of creativity and talent to all of us. It was not until I graduated high school that I realized I had it in me to do absolutely ev

Thank you for taking the time out of your own busy lives to come and check out my brand new blog. A lot, if not all of you, might be wondering what this blog is about. I have decided to journey on a brand new adventure of blogging my life. Now, my life is pretty hectic as many of you know I have three children who are of all age ranges. So, it can get really interesting and really crazy. But, the point of my blog is not only to share pieces my life, but into the layers... like a cake (I mean, I am a cake artist 😂). My goals are that my journey, experiences and testimony will bring each and every single one of my visitors laughter, joy, hope, faith, peace, and encouragement within your own lives. I firmly believe that God gave us all a voice to speak and share our struggles and our success with others to exemplify his glory.  Hello, My Name Is Luma For those who do not know me, hello my name is Luzmarie Hawkins or better known as Luma! I am 27 years old, a wife to my amazing man