Visionary & My Next Layer
[ˈviZHəˌnerē]
A very good friend of mine inspired me with this next blog. Upon deciding what it was that I wanted to talk about next, I received a pleasant message reminding me that I was in fact a visionary. Now, at first it took me back a bit, like, who me? No. Not me. That word just sounded so powerful and so SURE and so beyond me. So what did I do, naturally? GOOGLE it. 😂 Visionary...Someone who thinks about or plans the future with imagination or wisdom. Ohhh, okay! I am ALWAYS thinking or planning for the future with imagination and I do my best to do it with wisdom that I receive from studying the word of God. But, there is just a little problem. I have SO many thoughts and plans that it truly overwhelms me to the point that I don't see any of them through.
Overwhelmed.
Comes with being a visionary I guess. At least it does for me. I come up with all these wonderful future plans with all this imagination and creativity but for some reason I end up crashing. Why is this? As a cake artist I have so many amazing creative sketches of my next cake in my mind...I want to sculpt and mold and decorate elaborately and share my joy with the world! But I also want to make money, not waste money. So then, here comes the other "layer" of me...nursing. I was also born with the calling of making my mark on Earth within the health care field. It is something I could not ever shake off of me, something permanently embedded into my DNA. I envisioned myself as a doctor from the moment I could say the word doctor. I envisioned myself healing people and making a huge impact on health care as a woman with an immense compassion like no one had ever experienced. I want to combine both and give both my all. I want to branch both off into other sub categories and get crazy with ideas to help others in both avenues. But, it doesn't work that way.
SO, what am I supposed to do?
I make cakes, I LOVE doing it and I can make good money from it if I stay dedicated. I have ideas coming out of my ears with all the things I can do with it. But, I also have a calling that I can't ignore. Like a flame inside of me. I have plans for the future of what I WILL do when I become a doctor. I think many of us live in confusion like this and we don't speak about it. We fear what people will think, we fear we will lose support from the ones that we care and love the most and we fear that we won't achieve the success, happiness and money that we desire. When you can sit and imagine all these beautiful and great plans, it feels so good. You say to yourself, "Okay, this is definitely going to work!" And then, discouragement, overwhelming feelings and then those "little you" thoughts take over [Read Marshawn Evans Daniels book "Believe Bigger" to understand "little you"]. It goes from empowered and driven visionary to a weakened version of what you once thought was a good idea. But I think that is where the problem rests. A vision and an idea are two different things. Did you know that? I didn't...not until now! A vision is deep rooted, emotionally connected and instead of thinking "outside the box" it is about creating a whole new box that will lead to a brand new exciting and extraordinary journey. And, we need strength for the journey.
How Do I Strengthen Myself?
"But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong." -2 Corinthians 12:9-11
TAKE A STEP BACK.
Sometimes we try to control it all. We take it into our own power and our own strength to try and accomplish all of what we envision. I know it sounds easier said than done, like okay leave your weakness to God and rejoice and you'll be okay. But no. It doesn't work like that. You have to take accountability and responsibility. You have to know you are DOING TOO MUCH. You have to put in the full work on one solid idea at a time and SEE it THROUGH! You have to understand, YOU CANNOT do it all. You were created for a purpose, and you were given a specific assignment. SINGULAR. 😅 And in my case (and many of your own cases), I have a talent and a calling. But, both of them lead to ONE solid assignment of which I can get distracted from. I get so caught up with doing more and creating more that I fail to stop and listen to "BIG me" and most importantly to listen to God's still voice. Not something I can hear audibly, but something I can "hear" silently--when I am quiet and I can feel the peace when I just tell Him everything that is on my mind.
It is all about having faith, even a SPECK of faith...and using that as you run your race. Faith is where you get your endurance when you feel weak, lost, confused, fearful, depressed and anxious. Faith is what will reveal your next blessing, what will break down barriers and what will push you to the next step in life. But, you will not go without being tested! Because, of course, how did you graduate to the next grade if all you did was fail your exams? You wouldn't of passed on to the next grade, right? … That's life. So as I type this out to you, I hope that it hits home for someone. I hope that this lifts someone up and encourages you to finish what you started. It is time that I stop trying, and YOU stop trying, to plan so much just for the feeling of satisfaction and progression only to last a short period of time until we're back feeling lost again.
Remember what you planted in faith...and keep watering it!!
Tonight I want you to join me in leaving it at all at the feet of Jesus, whether you know him or not. Join me in closing your eyes and just asking Him to take your visions and make them straight and clear. Ask God to reveal himself to you because it is about time you stop trying to do and plan so much all on your own just for it to only last a few days and fade again. This is the time to take your visions and ask Him to narrow it down. And then, have faith that it will unravel! I believe that God is doing some incredible things in my life and in yours just as you read this now. We all have it in us, sometimes we just need a little boost! In the name of Jesus!
Don't give up. Be faithful. You ARE chosen. Focus on the vision not an idea and see it through!! WE CAN DO IT!!
Sending all of you my sincere love and prayers for that spark in your spirit to be ignited into who God has declared you are. If you haven't already, please go follow @karefullykreated (Instagram) or Kristen Nicole (FB) to take part in a beautiful, clarifying and strengthening challenge called the "I AM" challenge! Talk to you guys next week!!💗💗
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